Big city, I'm on my way!

It has been an interesting and exciting week for me. I got a letter in the mail from School of the Art Institute of Chicago saying that I've been accepted. Great news! Having one of the top 5 art schools in the NATION wanting you is a big deal.

Today, I got an email saying that I've been Nominated for a merit scholarship from the school. Only a selected few get NOMINATED for this early Merit. The deadline to apply and mail in by is Dec.7th. So I basically have two weeks to work on 10 cohesive pieces. Shit. Well World, I can prevail.

Can anyone smell the androgyny?

iIsure do! I've been researching about the beauty of it all. The website I go to for visual sensation and interesting texts is www.genderfork.com I recommend it if you like that kind of stuff as well

Site to make you Bright

This is me in the Wii!

If you are a huge ART SLUT like me, I think you should check out and look around in this website here:

http://www.tate.org.uk/tateplayer/

Hope you enjoy the experiance :]

Artist of the week.

I was looking through my box of memories and I encountered a crumpled sheet of paper that had a name on it. 'Jennifer Linton' I went online and googled it. She is a female artist. I’ve researched her before 3 years ago... Totally forgot about how extreme but yet simple her work was. I have to I would compare her to Cindy Sherman. She uses herself as a model and it's a little different to what you would see. Her earlier work is serious but fun to me. She’s somewhat of an illustrator. You should check out her stuff. Her shown work may be considered the dark site of feminism so you better watch out. I don't know, only YOU can be the judge. Feminism in general can be a scary thing. Haha

http://jdlinton.50webs.com/HTML/

Bright days and Radical notions.

Since yesterday, I’m feeling much better. One of my Governor’s School friends from Columbia, Tennessee came down here to hang out and talk to me. Something that I really needed. I felt so thankful that he was there. After he left, I insured myself that I will not be depressed for a while. So I went to Celeste’s and traveled into the boonies to get to my newest friends, Erica and Chante’s house. It was quite a splendor. My buddy EB finally confessed that I really don’t have an STD and she was just fuckin' with me. Eh, that fucker. I was so petrified for about 3 days. Well, I’ve now learned my lesson. Thanks EB. And thank you guys for being there for me no matter how needy I sounded. Now I’m back to my own self again and I’m ready for the day. It's almost 6am. Bring it!

Update..

It's been a couple of days and I'm doing a little better. I have forced myself to go towards the people I care and love. I'm trying. Yeah, I'm being like a needy bitch that’s afraid to pee in the bushes. I know this. Hopefully everything will go back to the norm where I feel as confident and as fierce like I was years ago. Or better yet, a year ago.

Anxiety. I am so sorry.

I know what the solution to my pre-mature madness is, but I can’t seem to find a free drug that’s unoccupied for the moment being. I can’t try to save myself by being alone in closed doors anymore. It’s a stretch to say that since it is part of who I am. I’m meant to be alone but only in a half amount of time. The other portions of time should be with public no matter how painful it can be for me in a mental stand point. Certain things can get into your skin. And in my skin, there is a lot of me and a little of unconditional love. I wish I was more comfortable toward the people I care for and adore. I have too much of personal knowledge pushing me back. I can't extremely express how I truely truely feel. I always fail and I'm so sick of how I think. I can't stop thinking, so being stupid is out of the question. I cannot relax because no one can relax me. Believe me, I've tried for myself. It is all an epic fail. I wish someone.. Anyone! can help me right now. I'm struggling a little.