was worth the coldness

So my sister and I finally went to the museum. It was so fullfilling for me. I just can't stop thinking about some of those photographs on display.  I still feel that dention from Nan Goldin's photograph. I believe it was called The Ballet of Sexual Dependancy. I may be wrong but fuck it. If it's googled, then it'll be understood. There were so many happy episodes in my head when I was anylizing and admiring those photographs. I did in fact had an orgy for my eyes. I don't know if it's the actual series itself or if it's just my lack of going out to a show everytime, since I live far from a museum of art and "real" art in general. All and all, I feel hyped up and it's just 4:30pm standard time! 

Pigeon!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CELK1Fjxvtg

I wish I was there to see it with my own eyes. Ha ha ha ha ha:D

BIRD music!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsR0uyPxqxI

I just crossed upon this musician. His name is Andrew Bird and wow. He seems like a music genius. I need to learn more about this guy whenever I have the chance. You should indeed check him out yourself. I like the instrumental experimental affairs.

Legel pt.II

Well, I believe I spoke too soon. I did have a shity birthday earlier, but in the end, it was the best. I got drunk and it was the best drunk experiance I have ever had. I felt so special. I wasn't alone. They really care about me.

Legal ..

My birthday joy is really plunging down because of the word of mouth my mother heard about me. It is gonna go down sooner than I thought and that's not a good way of saying.. "Happy 18th Birthday, daughter." No no no no no The shit will hit the fan harder than before.

The Narcissist and the Recluse

"Healthy people that makes us happy are happily narcissistic. They are in harmony with themselves. They like and love themselves. And they distribute that affection else where."

If you don't have any decent amount of narcissism in you, then you are full of self-distruction. You have to have a concious amount of it to be a human being.. Why do you think artists are artists?

Reality checking up on me

When random people come up to you or even just stay in their seat with their bright eyes and exclaim "You're my hero!", it's still a fuking amazing surprise to my ears. It's a thrilling sensation to me. It is like when you finished something and did it right, such as having your first kiss, or driving by yourself with music way up and windows down to shock the elderly.   It's the one thing I never tried to make people think of when I work on or flaunt what I can do. To me, every process of this that I do is worth it. I could never be happier.